I've been so busy for the past few months that blogging has unfortunately been pushed to the back of my mind.
I must say that life has really been so packed and crazy, and it doesn't necessary translate to be a good thing.
I mean, there has been a lot happening this few months, whether it's at work, at home, or even alone. I've made mistakes, I've learnt, I've cried, I've laughed, I've reflected, I've been disappointed, I've been pissed off...
I would say that I've gained a lot of new perspectives as time passes, whether it's about myself or other people.
At the end of every situation, I can only tell myself what it is that I can learn from this experience, and hopefully move on instead of trying to hang on to the past.
But the one thing I'm very glad in is the fact that I feel like I've become more dependent on God than ever. I have Him to continuously remind me that it is more important to be a humble person than to be one that is so successful and wealthy that he looks down on everyone else. And He also continues to be the direction that I seek even as I pray, more desperately than ever because life is just so busy now that I can't seem to juggle it all anymore.
I guess this is what it means to be an adult? I not sure myself because of still so new at this whole thing. I can only continue to explore and hopefully have some sort of realisation as I move on in life.
But currently, from what I've seen and observed, if being an adult only means having that financial independence, being more resourceful because you've accumulated years of experience, being successful in your career, being prideful because of your successes, indulging in materials stuff and comparing with others with the hopes of putting the people around you down, then I think I'm better off remaining as a kid.
Everything above is not what I want, though I admit the money part is more than tempting. But what I seek personally is to be wiser and yet not become a know-it-all smart alec, to be even more humble instead of prideful through my accomplishments, to be contented without the need to material things but rather find happiness in the intangible of helping and serving other people, to be more patient with people so that I can become a dependable someone that they can turn to in times of need.
There are adults that act like immature people, and I've seen those many times. I can only hope that I don't become like them...
Life is hard because there is no such thing as perfection. I think I've finally put down that expectation on myself that everything around me has to be perfect. Nothing is perfect. It's about me contented and grateful with status quo and hope that whatever challenges that comes my way can be solved.
